The awesome Christian band named MercyMe has a song titled, “Dear Younger Me”– it’s an interesting idea to think whether or not you would give yourself advice about how to live your life because all those choices– good AND bad– led to the present. But also, what advice WOULD you give yourself if you could?
After my last post in the ER, so much has happened. A three-day two-night hospital stay, a 7 Tesla MRI (which, by the way, is not common and extremely powerful), and talk of brain surgery partially thanks to the findings on the MRI. So yes, I am scheduled to have brain surgery in May– but because my case is on an ASAP basis, may be moved up sooner. So reflecting on the craniotomy I had in October 2016, I do have an answer to what I would tell my then-eighteen-year-old self.
Two months before my 2016 surgery, I got tired by noon, couldn’t sit outside alone (if no one could get to me and I had a seizure that’s kind of a huge problem), and felt trapped inside the house. Fast forward two months: I was almost entirely bedridden, with my EEG attached to the wall, using a commode, lost about 12 pounds of muscle, and was on audio/visual 24 hour recording (that’s a 2016 craniotomy for you!). And yet, over the course of about 2 1/2 to 3 weeks (including my recovery), I learned some important lessons in thankfulness and humility. When I came home in time for the Presidential election, I could be grateful to be alone in the bathroom or walk across the room to turn the light on. I learned important lessons the hard way. So this time, I want to be thankful from now through my surgery experience. Although it will be different from the last and much less invasive, I don’t want to complain.
And I don’t want you to, either.
Not about COVID-19. Not about your job that you still have to go to when everyone else is at home. Not about how much food is on the shelves at the grocery store. Make a list of what you’re thankful for AND MEAN IT. Because, believe me, if you don’t learn this lesson now you may have to learn it the hard way.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7
Have a great week,